As you've read from the title, this blog is the product of keeping my own sort of New Year's resolution i'm casting upon myself. I don't really know how these things work, but I know that this blog isn't going to make my letters to God (i.e. my journal) obsolete by any means. But I realize that this blog, like anything worth reading (lol), is going to have a purpose. I don't like reading worthless pages of people's gossip without at least some form of direction or change on the main character's part.
But the blog itself isn't my resolution. After all, why do people need to post something when I'm writing in my journal? Where's the overall Arc of these posts of life I choose to live? Why am I asking you this? Pure rhetoric, friend, relax.
First, a little about myself. I'm Seventeen as of now. My birthday is exactly thirty days from today (if you start counting on the fourth), and I'm going to be a legal adult at that time (I'm actually a little terrified, to be honest with you.) I am Christian, have been for the last 3, maybe 4, years. I'm part of my high school's first International Baccalaureate program, and trust me, starting out your junior year with 64 students in your class and having it whittle down to a measly nine by the time that you enter your senior year tells you that it's no cake walk. I have a great passion for writing (I know it sort of comes with the territory when you decide to become a blogger), play two instruments consistently, and volunteer my time at the hospital and at my church cafe. I go to two churches: Sunrise Church in Rialto, when my family can make it, and Crestview done the street from my house, when they can't. I simply enjoy my time with God and Godly people, and with my few non-Godly friends, as well. I'm very active: I was a leading attorney for my school's mock trial team, helped organized a debate between two teachers to raise money for both Musa and the Academic Decathlon team, and (as of about five days ago) am on one of my churches' bible quiz team.
So, the real reason why I am writing this blog is because of a decision I've made and a book I'm reading. You see, while I'm writing this blog, I'm battling homosexuality. This means that, as a Christian, I am in a position that doesn't generate a lot of sympathy from either side of the debate. On top of that, I am sure that you reading this have your own reservations on what I am doing and the whole debate. But, as an honest person, I have to look at my life through the lens of what is best for myself, no matter what the media, culture, or my friends say.
Now, don't get me wrong. I'm human. I'm going to do things that I won't be proud of. However, I'm going to make it my mission to be as honest as possible with whomever is reading this. I'm going to state what failures I make during the course of this journey, and I'm going to be recounting my personal history as the need arises.
The secondary reason why I decided to make a blog about my efforts is because of this book i'm reading. Alex and Brett Harris's book "Do Hard Things" is great for teenagers, and anyone, really, who want to do the things they know that they can do. I'l probably be referencing to the book anytime I do something discussed in it's pages. It calls that I do a lot of things that i'm not comfortable with, but I know that I'm better off following the advice then just making a lot of unnecessary mistakes along the way.
Thirdly, and possibly the most important reason that I'm writing this blog, is to give hope and encourage anyone who wants to get themselves out of what I am currently struggling with, and also, to those who just aren't sure whether or not to trust God with that one issue, that giant elephant in the room, for fear of what may actually happen when we do. There are things that occur in our lives that can cause us to feel like God isn't on our side anymore, and we begin to wonder if He ever was. I get that, and I am letting you know that I've definitely been there. But, there is absolutely no truth to that statement. God definitely loves, and He loves his children Fiercely.
One final thought: Christians, true Christians who are serious about their faith, aren't simply real-life versions of Quinn Fabray (anyone who watches "Glee" knows what i'm talking about). As Christians, we should be the ones that are standing for what we know is right, even if the rest of the world doesn't agree with us. As Christians, our first responsibility to our fellow man is to Love them.
What does that mean? Talk to me at kosuke454@rocketmail.com
As you know, we're battling the same things. :P As you support me, I'll do the same for you ^_^; You have more knowledge and everything but eh.. >.> I feel like I should just let you know I will. .___.
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