Goals...

We all should have them. Goals are something that, if we don't have them, our lives tend to lose meaning. We cease to perform well, and our lives lack direction. I know that for a fact, because it seems that, for the last eighteen years, i have been a living example of what happens when you don't have Goals, or rather, when you HAVE them, but have no investment in them.

I was never one to simply go through the motions. If I don't see the point in something, don't believe that i will do it. For a long time, i saw that there was very little in all the work that i was doing. All the assignments that were given to us, to me, was simply busy work. Now don't forget, I was an honors student, who managed to transfer into an internationally acclaimed high school program, however, i couldn't necessarily say that i cared about any of it EXCEPT to say that i was in this prestigious program. With great regret, i have to say that all my failures-- my lack of commitment, my laziness, my indecision, my complacency, my foresight of the consequences that were to unfold from my own misadventures, or lack of, all stemmed from my lack of belief. Laziness, i found, is not an incurable condition, ever present and all-too-convenient for us to battle, but simply a lack of belief in something. Whether it be in our dreams, God, or others's beliefs in us, we need these motivations to hold us accountable in everything we do.

I applied to nine universities. I was rejected from seven so far, with one acceptance letter from UCR. I'm not going to lie and say that i took it all in stride. Sure, i cried. It's been rough having the university you were even sure of tel you that they weren't able to admit you. But you knwo what, i'm learning from all of it, because i am reevaluating myself to make the changes necessary to be successful in College, even if my parents did/didn't do these things for me.

By the time I realized what was the issue, it was too late for me in High School to make a difference, but College isn't the end. It is a different step, where we can grow in new ways, it is much like a different chance to fulfill our goals that we couldn't/wouldn't be able to do in high school. However, i must produce, because, like they should've been all along, my dreams are now bigger. Dreaming impossible dreams are the only way that things get done, and when people tell you things like "you are being naive," or "you can't do it." Simply leave those opinions where you found them, because they are worthless to you. We have our purpose on this world, and I have to say that the bigger we dream, the harder we dream, the more motivated we become to do the things that seemed like chores to us before, and the more that rigor is enforced in our own bodies.

After thought and examination about where i will be attending school this fall, i have compiled a list of goals for myself, that I have written in my journal, programmed in my phone, and am now going to post on this blog. These Goals are going to change as my circumstances change, and i will seek to apply belief into all the aspects of my life.

1] I am going to get my IB Dimploma
2] I will ace my IOC
3] I will Start a men's Diving Team at whatever university I attend
4] I will write a book before i finish College
5] I will reach a new level with God, and seek advancement everyday of my life.
6] I will prove everyone wrong....AGAIN
7] I will write in my journal... Every. Single. Day.
8] I will remember my friends... and be more discerning of who is who.
9] I will pray... @ 5 30 every day
10]I will blog... @ 7 30 everyday
11]I will read my bible everyday when i wake up

I bring this entry with one simple command: Believe. Believe in yourself, in God, in others. Believe in something. When you do so, you can find yourself becoming more than what you ever thought you could be.

Goodnight everyone. Goodnight, and Good dreaming.