The morning After...

Can We pretend that Airplanes in the Night Sky are like Shooting Stars?
I could really use a Wish right now...
-Haley Williams of Paramore

The regret has set in deep. I suppose I should say that I should've known better. Of course, everyone knows what they've been told. That's the problem. We are always told.

Today, I couldn't feel much like doing anything. I had betrayed what little faith God had in me... I think. That's the painful part. It's always the uncertainty that the Bible stirs in me. I have discovered that I have no Faith in God's character, in his morals, in his grace. I wish not to reject God... but It's really starting to look like that there is nothing that I can do to keep this relationship alive. I'm on my last legs.

I suppose... that this may be the end of Him and I. I should get used to this lonely life. And yes, it is lonely: the guy even told me that he didn't love me.

If i could have a wish... I'd wish that God never thought me up.