I....

I want to be the smartest. I want to be the best. I want to be the most fluid. I want to be the exception.

The exception...but, in what way? What is it that i desire? I want my life to turn tides of history, my accomplishments flabbergasting. I want people to look at my name in reverence. I wan to be seen as invaluable. I want, not simply to create, but to recreate, to redefine, to change what was thought before. I want to be like the writers of old... my works revolutionary and worth studying.

I want to be the best. I want to be happy.

I want... to be everything. I still want that. I want to bring about a glorious revolution... but I only want to play my role to the best of my ability. To please God, and to be loved by him...always.

And his love won't run out... He's mine forever. I am my beloved, and my beloved is mine.