Spirits, Spirits... Can You Hear Them, Deux Spirits?

"Digimon...Forever United as One

Digimon....Together, The Battles Are Won

Digimon... Through us, Let your Spirit Evolve

If we're all for one world,

There's a world for us all."

The night turns to the wee hours of the day and still I am up in front of a LED screen and a seed of a revelation. Again and again I am baffled by the places my blissful spirit leads me, and I often find myself wondering of the two I have, which is the wiser. Beneath a quilt lies content legs and giddy lungs, my head slightly bobbing to the technically inspired beat of Nostalgia, who has visited me yet again on this night. I find myself never growing tired of his visits, for when he is here, I find myself sleeping easier, and waking up more rested.

Tonight, we visited a lost treasure in my past--Digimon. Even now, my heart flutters with a lost child-like happiness. As a child, I only watched but a few episodes throughout my elementary ad middle-school life, but it did more than supply a fragment of my past inside of me; it enthralled me like nothing else. Days upon end I wondered about being inside that digital world, special enough to wield a Digivice and have my own crest to find and use on my very own Digimon-friend. It was the first work of fiction that I had attempted, and here on this night, after at least a decade, I found myself a child before it, and awakened to everything that the blissful spirit had done by bringing me to it.

I have never seen but one episode of the fourth season, which is known as "Digimon Frontier", and I have but little interest in the fifth, titled "Data Squad". I had known a fair portion of the theme song that had been more or less identical in the first three seasons, and I listened, the euphoria setting my eyes on fire and connecting my heart to the adrenal glands.

As I thumbed through the my memories of this show, I remembered a few details about the concept behind it. In season one and two, middle-schoolers are transported to a digital a la tron and performed their roles as guardians, defending the digital world as well as their own. The third occurred in another dimension where Digimon is, indeed, a television show, as well as a card game, and three kids are given an enigmatic blue card, which gives them real Digimon. With the fourth season, "Digimon Frontier", came the new theme song, and the single episode I had seen, I remember one impressing detail that has given me, a jaded adolescent, a renewal of hope: "Spirit Evolution."

One of the things about the show was that, instead of having the Digimon as these outside creatures that walked, talked, and had personalities that complimented their corresponding human, the idea was that the kids themselves would undergo transformation, and what they had turned into were based on these totem-like relics that they had found. Totems. 

I don't know much about Native American culture, but I know about the importance of Totems. They were known as the guardian spirits of an individual or family, if I remember correctly. I began thinking of my given name: Two-Spirits. It had its own understanding amongst Native Americans, but that was not the meaning meant for me, nor my name-giver's intent when he gave it to me. Two-Spirits has merely been a description: I have been gifted with more than one intent, ideal, and perspective. I am more than singular.

As I have become more aware of these two forms of self, I have often sought their counsel, and even named them: Atticus and Pishon. They are my guardians, my totems, and with their hands in mine, I am following my bliss and pining away towards heaven, wherever it may be. I have yet to give them form, but they are more real to me than I can find words to describe right now.

Can you hear them, Spirits? Can you hear them? The drums, the drums... they are calling! The chants of journey! "Ha-ya-moo-ah! Ha-ya-moo-ah!"

Hear the Call